"Writing is how I audit the silence. These poems are the echoes of my experiments—notes taken while listening to the light and the noise of a life in motion."
Vibrations in Verse
The Heart of the Experiment: My Journey
"Healing isn't the absence of illness; it is the presence of light within it."
"Finding the light in the depths of the shadows."
"I didn't become a Pranic Energy Experimenter by choice; I became one by necessity. My path has been paved with the heavy realities of the 'modern pulse'—navigating the delicate rhythms of my father’s journey through diabetes, kidney, eye failure and heart failure, and standing as a witness to my mother’s brave battle with breast cancer.
In the midst of this, my own body spoke up through a diagnosis of Ulcerative Colitis. And as a mother, I have walked the high-speed roller coaster of parenting a neurodivergent son with severe allergies and asthma.
This was my laboratory.
Through these seasons of depletion, I had to learn how to audit my own energy just to survive. I had to find the poetry in the pain. These experiments in yoga, breath, and pranic healing weren't just 'practices'—they were the tools that allowed me to lead my family with a light in my heart, even when the world felt dark.
I don't teach from a place of perfection; I teach from the wisdom of the trenches. Every poem I write and every session I lead is infused with the truth that even when our 'energy reserve' feels bankrupt, there is a reservoir of peace waiting to be tapped."
The light goes on
A Svadhyaya Reflection: Finding the Steady Flame
Reading these lines again today feels like an intentional act of Svadhyaya—the practice of using self-study to look into the mirror of our own lives. Spanning a twenty-year journey of writing, returning to these words allows me to see them with entirely fresh eyes.
When I wrote this, I was exploring the interplay between darkness and light, and how we navigate the journey back to a centered self. Look at the progression within the lines: it begins with the light flickering on, confronts the ways "delusion dissolves," and ultimately anchors itself in a "flicker-less flame" of pure consciousness and realization. It is a poetic map of nervous system regulation—moving from the chaotic barriers of the mind back to the warmth of the steady, internal sun.
Revisiting these words is a powerful reminder that the "joyous journey" isn't a destination we reach and stay at forever. The day-to-day struggles of life, parenting, and simply being human mean that we constantly cycle through these states. Some days we feel the "darkness dares to dispel," and other days we are operating from that "inextinguishable beacon" of bold bravery.
The beauty of self-study is realizing that even when the external world feels turbulent, that flicker-less flame of faith and awareness is always accessible within us. It is a permanent sanctuary we can return to, breathe into, and move forward from wisely.
Continue the Journey Inward
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